Today I’ve heard something shocking, I can’t speak of it so its best if its here. A three year rs, looking happy looking good but this fool has been playing.. Oh that’s jus not the worst part… Got caught red handed (the worst possible scene) and still continue.
Sometimes I wonder why people stay and torture themselves? Doesn’t it hurt to lie beside someone u don’t even know (okay ya we don’t really really know one another but hey! this is a whole new lvl.
How do u live feeling the uncertainty of tmr, feeling the fear of the phone ringing, the fear of jus leaving the person fo a couple of hours?
Been there, done that. Come to think of it the worst period of my life and no matter how good it was I’ll never wanna go back there. Sad to say its bound to happen once or twice in life or more (unlucky).
Have you ever woke up and fear the mirror cause u doubt ur existence, ur looks, ur intelligence, ur appearance, ur abilities and probably ur everything. Like a slight glance on a broken glass will stab through ur heart. Like the whole world was laughing at u while u didn’t know.
I mean that’s not something I ever wanna feel again (I hope). Well they say there’s a first for everything. Anyway the irony here is that the cheaters are always the good figure in the relationship, I don’t know why actually. (Beats me) and that’s when it truly hurts (the unexpected).
U go through nights replaying how bad u were, the things u could have been better, how u would be if u could, how u would try to stop.
And as much as u said before that if someone cheats u r walking out! (from experience, it doesn’t happen this way). It hurts but u try, first u blame her/him then oh it gets worst…urself.
Its a part of the past I wish I could forget but yet I wanna keep dearly. (surprising). Probably I just want to remember to grow from it. It seriously changes you. I’ve learn that there’s a price to pay for happiness and that u are not that good in everything u think u are (no, wait I’m not saying u become less of urself with low esteem and all), less arrogant probably.
Okay back two years, or just one, I probably would be carrying a heavy heart typing this. I could remember the smell of my room actually (er not tt good to rem). Anyway back to it. Here’s the thing I didn’t get (I’m highlighting didn’t).
How fast do u expect forgiveness?
The mistake maker would assume okay now u catch me, one month u’ll put it behind (hello honey, I’m not a white board).
I mean I get it, time yes more time please. But here’s the thing it was fault on the other party to rant on ‘u cheat on me’ everyday. Its not right, I mean to a certain extend. (If u can’t accept leave? Right) well, not always the case.
So then I’m asking who’s fault is it?
Ya, we all make mistakes? What price are we willing to pay? And if one couldn’t forgive, is it the persons fault to rant cause it hurts for a very long time? (reminder: not the one that cheat)

Once in secondary school, a teacher said to me :
You wanna be an adult but are you ready to accept the consequences of being one when u make a mistake.

Just my take on cheating! Kuddos humans.