I wish I could get on a plane and be where you are. I’m just stuck here going nuts. I don’t know who I am anymore. And I’m freaking out. I’m crazy, I’ll do incredible things for you! I’ll do stuff, real crazy stuff. And the thing is that ure gonna hate me at the end of everything, you’re gonna not wanna remember all of what we have. Because somehow I ruin people, I go nuts and be the best I can but I ruin them. So please, if I just walk away now its not that I don’t wanna be with you but I just don’t want to ruin anyone anymore.

I’m just trying the best I can because I really do like what we have. I’m trying my best to not fall face first, I’m trying to hide every emotion I have. I’m not cold, I’m not heartless. I’m very much falling in love with you, I don’t know when I don’t know how. And they all think you’re just gonna be another and you might becus I’m just freaking out.

And when you come back and if I’m not around. Please know that it isn’t you, its just me.